sab bakwas hai

We usually think if there is something to spirituality then its only about sheer joy or unbounded pleasure and if there is any force which is unknown to us then it should give us peace and joy.But nature doesn't work on the basis of our ideas. It may show you how unpleasant and unbearable things are if the thinker grows out of proportion inside this biological system. It can't show where to go but it can show you where not to go.

The idea of happiness or peace or soul or God or anything is just an idea. It can't solve our day to day living problems. Whatever is resisting the smooth flow of life around you and in your interactions with other human beings should be out from the system. Meditating in room isolating one self from society will not help in any manner. It won't take you anywhere. Life has to move forward with constant interaction with its surroundings. That is how life is. It does not have any answer. It has its own flow. If the fire for getting answers is enormous then It may melt down the questioner inside you leaving you in a space of not knowing.

On the journey of self awareness there is no goal to achieve but there are things to negate, discrimination of thoughts is a very important aspect of it and "self" has this natural inherent  property to discriminate properly between the various thoughts if it wants to.